I have been paralyzed by my past (again), and am picking it (the old trauma) back up in a difficult relationship in the present. (Again.) Brilliant, right?
It's OK, I suppose, as long as I learn and grow from it, not just whine. I keep going back to the same type of person and same type of relationship so that I can keep learning and eventually get this particular karma burned through.
The details aren't important, but the lesson is. There are a few reasons why I don't feel ready to let go of being pissed, namely:
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| Sorrow Artist: Lauren Brodeur |
It's OK, I suppose, as long as I learn and grow from it, not just whine. I keep going back to the same type of person and same type of relationship so that I can keep learning and eventually get this particular karma burned through.
The details aren't important, but the lesson is. There are a few reasons why I don't feel ready to let go of being pissed, namely:
- I don't feel that you are really sorry for your part in this.
- I'm not convinced that you understand how badly you hurt me.
- I am still harboring resentment for some of the other ways you have hurt me in the past.
Here’s the opportunity: Forgiveness is a gift I can give to myself. It's a choice to release the burden of anger and pain. If I choose to forgive, I choose to live in the present instead of the past. It does not mean I have to forget but it does mean I'm going to release and go on.
Forgiveness isn't going to happen on its own, I must choose to forgive. If I can let this go I can move to a happier place and then we can have a long and healthy friendship.
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